Better Days

Hiya! So after yesterday's social low today was met with many challenges.

First I went shopping which wasn't all bad I guess. I mean the pain I felt at the till was pretty bad but the though of food in my fridge was nice :) It also ultimately meant I had ingredients to do baking which seems to be all I do at Uni at the moment.

I have discovered a love of baking since moving to uni. Weather it's because it fills time I enjoy it or whatever other reason (mainly they taste amazing!) but I cant seem to stop. I've made Rocky Road twice, Scones, cupcakes twice and a lemon drizzle cake in the space of 3 weeks. Making brownies tomorrow.

After posting my blog earlier today, after writing it up last night then forgetting to press publish, something strange occurred. After all my worries about not being liked and feeling scared to talk to others everything became wonderful. My flatmate came to me and made me feel about 10,000 times happier just by saying she regards me as her friend. She let me know everything was normal, that how I was feeling was okay and that she would be there if I needed anything. Also mentioning others in the flat probably felt the same! I felt like I could cry with happiness.

So what did I do, I propped my door open and when they went into the kitchen I joined them. It was the best decision I've made since I got here! I did some baking whilst chatting and laughing and just being with the girls. I loved just spending time together and it took my mind completely off where I was and what I was missing. I did that for 2 hours and it felt like half an hour.

I also got messages on facebook, twitter and text from people I never really imagined could help me. People I don't keep in regular contact who just rushed to help me when they thought they could, and they did. It has surprised me how much and how many people have been there for me today when I have needed cheering up.

So thank you, I won't forget it. And be sure that if you ever need me I'll be there to help because you have cheered me up when I was close to running away. Thank you!!

Goodnight.