Hey! So im kinda new to this so we will see how it goes. I've noticed recently people I know have been making blogs and figured it is a great way to express yourself without having to come face to face witha real person. This way I can express myself without getting nervous, here I can just be me.
So I started Uni about... 3 weeks ago now and it has been super scary. Yep I never realised what my mum did for me at home and how much I really have no clue what to do. I've realise how awkward I am in social situations and that I really do not make friends easily. For example put me in a brand new situation with brand new people and I will freeze, ill turn from the most talkative person ever to the most shy person you have ever met. It is becoming lonely and embarrassing. I wish I had the confidence to go and join my fellow flatmates but I am just not that confident. Someone help me.
Other peeople have told me to get out there and just have fun but I get one step out my door and then freeze before running back in again. I can be confident on a stage in front of hundreds of people I dont even know but faced with three or four lovely girls in my flat who are all in exactly the same situation as me and I am suddenly terrified, its silly!
So what do I do now? Do I invite them round? No i question if they really like me.
Suddenly my brain goes into overload and everyone in the world has a horrible vendetta against me and the only people I can trust are living over 160 miles away. Why did I choose to live so far away?
I think that is enough for one blog but I intend to plague you with my university adventures, everything from cooking to cleaning and whatever tends to come inbetween including all these social dramas.
Goodnight.
Ashleigh seriously your a lovely person and a nice friend, and you know me so i dont mean this to sound blunt -but they are just people whats the worse they can do, stop worrying what people will think and jump in its the only way! there girls your a girl you all think in the same way, breathe leave the room and go talk!
ReplyDeleteThank you jess, Ill do my best :) x
DeleteYou're doing great Ashleigh! Don't give up. So many people drop out because moving out is tough. I've been living in Falmouth a year and am in my own house w/ my boyfriend etc but still miss home every day. Once you get into a routine things will definitely get easier too. As for trying to fit in, last year my housemates were constantly trying to get me to go out but drinking etc isn't really my scene. Only do the things you want to do! Good luck with everything, your blog is looking great too! x
ReplyDeleteAww im glad to hear you have settled well and that I just need time :) Thank you and I hope your second year is just as amazing! x
DeleteLive life according to your rules Sweetheart, not the rules of others . You will atract like minded people in due course ..XX Pops
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